{ Saturday, March 18, 2006
it's been quite a busy week.
romp was totally packed.
the queue to get in was zomg insanity.
inside was pretty much mad as well.
individual space was too little for my liking.
many people i never expected to see,
but it was rad to have everyone there.
saw a couple of my pri school classmates too!(:
well the preparty was amusing.
what with going to tangs to get lois made up(:
haha. we should all go do it sometime soon!
i realised smthng when arranging how to get down to romp.
i feel like i'm losing my friends to...well just about everything. school, sports, cca, boys etc etc etc.
sharonlam i miss u to bits it's been forever since i've seen you!
life seems hell lot more complicated now, compared to last year.
i actually even miss having a classroom to go to every morning, a classroom to stay in and go back to.
a classroom seems to give a sense of belonging...a place to go back to as a class.
in many ways i'm torn.
i don't know how to split my time among my classmates and my friends equally.
seems like the end result is being close to neither side.
i asked a friend last night whether i've changed.
the answer was yes i have. how i'm always moody and easily irritated.
that's not the way i want to be.
i want to be happy, carefree and laughing.
but i don't see how i can genuinely be that way when i have that void constantly nagging at the back of my mind.
nostalgia is stripping me bare.
it's totally tugging those emotional heartstrings and working those lacrimal ducts.
time to work on those defences again.
friends please don't change too much.
on the brighter side of i'mbeingemotionalwhywon'tistopitit'skindaannoyingeventome and arrghholidaysareendingreallllsoon,
i spent more time sleeping on friday than any other day this year(:
and class bbq tonight!
hope the turnout will be good!
now time to hit the books that i've ignored for ages or fell asleep doing.
seeyall!
`SAYYOULOVEME.;
12:42 PM
