{ Monday, August 22, 2005
everything can just go to hell la.
screw it all.
i haven't studied, my playing is going to pieces.
i'm going to SCREW UP my piano exam tmr.
and i won't be able to pass it and my parents wont pay for me to take it again.
i so badly want to pass it.
i know i've been practicing but i KNOW that i could've started practicing earlier.
then i wouldn't be in this sorry state now.
i'm going to first fail my piano,
then fail all my end of years.
WHAT A HAPPY LIFE.
due to my excessive travelling to try the exam piano,
there is NO TIME to study.
because the one hour breaks i have in coming home is totally useless.
like i eat smthng and that one hour is totally gone.
shit la.
i have to practice summore.
my lower arm muscles are like sore and they hurt.
don't you people poke them in school.
I'M GOING TO SCREW UP MY PIANO EXAM
HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW!!!
i'm so depressed.
i really miss my parents.
true i have more freedom like i can go out when i want.
(too bad it's exam periodif not WAH havoc.hoho)
but i really miss having them to fetch.
or like just drop by their room and talk to them.
esp my mom.
srsly i think if she was around i wouldn't be stressing up so much over my exam tmr.
i have ZERO ZILCH NON confidence at all.
and i NEED to start mugging for eoys.
like SS is on FRIDAY val WHAT ARE YOU DOING YOU HAVEN'T EVEN TOUCHED ON IT.
and all the sciences.
DIE VAL DIE.
DIE
my mom and sister are coming back tmr.
and so's my dad!
yippee!
i feel like going to the airport to meet them.
but what a waste of mugging time.
oh wait airport can mug what right?
i've heard of people actually GOING there to mug.
go figure.
BACK TO THE PIANO.
PAIN.
O.
wish me luck SOMEONE.
i've been asking for luck how sad is that la.
`SAYYOULOVEME.;
8:22 PM
