{ Tuesday, December 21, 2004
you asked me
i said yes
we had fun.
well kinda.
for 2 days after it was fine.
now it GODDAM FUCKING sucks.
you say you don't have that feeling
well FUCK that feeling.
why did you ask me for then.
why don't u just fucking leave me to my own miserable life the way it was and not mess with it and make it fucking more miserable?
i was fine for a year you know
a year w/o you.
it's worse this time.
i trusted you.
the old feelings never died.just rekindled.
but this time,
you leave me hanging there.
is there no end?
is what i see a pretense?
people say words cut.
but not only do your words cut,your actions cut to
u say you love me
for a while i thought that was true
but now i come to see
even though u say i do
i know i mean nothing to you.
i abhore getting i dunnos
i abhore getting oh okays
i abhore getting well wells
why can't you be the same person i meet and talk to?
but now,it's gone even more down the drain.
no calls
no messages
no memories.
i wish i could flush out of my mind
as easily as i could flush shit out of the toilet bowl
cos u are a FUCKING PILE OF SHIT.
well right now at least.
i don't really stay mad for long.
though i think i should learn how to,just for you.
why aren't you like other people
oh fuck i'm just insignificant.
so why the hell
am i clinging on.
let us just get this over and done with.
and yet,you know,you are adorable.
why can't u just change.
or respond at least.
i really don't know my status right now.
i want to get out there and have fun.
but the thought of you restricts me.
i wish i never met you.
you SCREW my thoughts up.
SCREW you.
`SAYYOULOVEME.;
10:27 PM
